After the talk comes …
… the break up.
Happier times!
Dear friends,
It has been two years and 16 days that I have shared my wonderful life with Nat. Throughout the two years, there were bumps and hiccups that were normally fixed by promises of change and working hard in making things work. However, we hit a bump recently and there was no solution to that bump. Painful as it is, we have decided to end this relationship. Reasons that will remain private to us, all I can say is that it all ended amicably. Nat can have his cake and eat it :)
Besides the highlight of being together everyday, there were moments that stood out that deserves mention - Monkey, Nat’s arrest where I think I promised never to let Nat go, forums, movies, snuggle muggles, childwen galore lol. Emo as I am, I am crying as I type. It breaks my heart that this had to happen and I would really hope that everyone would respect our decision. It’s funny how I felt that this warranted a public announcement because we are oddly and somewhat a public couple. lol. I guess I’m being too self-absorbed but I felt it was necessary to clear the air that we are now two separate entities.
I’m a mess right now. 2008 has been personally one of the worst year I’ve had. I can safely say I’ve hit an all-new low that I am not accustomed to. The feeling of having my heart ripped out is not easy and I can only find strength from …. well, I don’t know. I’m seeking it from within I guess and I’m trying my darnedest best to speed the healing process.
I’m also writing this because I needed closure. And a reminder that I need to be strong. I hope this would discourage Nat from making any attempts to fix this but I think that’s highly unlikely and that is okay. I’ve done my best and given my all. I have nothing left.
The beating of a hollow heart is deafening. And I’m the only one that can hear it.
I love you, Nat. I will love you always. Thank you and your wonderful family for everything. May you find the joy that you seek.
<3
9pm, June 4, 2006 - 3am, June 21, 2008
Oh by the way, it’s my birthday tomorrow on Sunday! The irony of everything really. I’m trying so hard to laugh about it :) :(
June 21st, 2008 at 3:58 am
Sorry to hear about this. Hope you feel better soon!!!!!!! *hugs* =)
June 21st, 2008 at 6:45 am
Hi Li Tsin
I just so happened to visit the Assuntarians on the Net section of AssuntaAlumni.com to discover “Nat’s GF” is ASSUNTARIAN! OK, that’s a wicked joke. I used to be known as “Bernard Lu’s daughter” :p
Just know you are loved whatever your decision. If it might help, read Kahlil Gibran’s Poems at http://www.katsandogz.com/gibran.html - may you find your answer there. (Nat, if you’re reading this, please read the poems too)
Much love, may God bless and guide both of you always and all ways.
P.S. This just came to mind: Love is Letting Go of Fear.
June 21st, 2008 at 6:56 am
Take care of yourself. Sorry this had to happen…. sigh….
June 21st, 2008 at 6:57 am
Chin up girl..
June 21st, 2008 at 7:13 am
And yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Birthdays are new beginnings, a new day, everything new, new discoveries sometimes even about oneself and the people we thought we knew, but didn’t see from another angle… and it always turn out to be a blessing… what more on a SUNday. Have a blessed day! :)
BTW, I’m not sorry you guys broke up… it’s not my fault!
Did you laugh? :D
June 21st, 2008 at 9:28 am
Happy Birthday.
June 21st, 2008 at 11:21 am
you are such a pretty person, im sure you’ll find someone else and move on… however, nat’s my friends cousin, you are my friend’s sister.. so of course your readers and his readers will feel a bit of loss too. Anyhow, hope and wish you all the best.
2008 is crap for me too, so we are in the same boat.
last up…. march 8th i think.
happy birthday tomorrow!
take care.
June 21st, 2008 at 11:52 am
Is nothing private anymore? I really wouldn’t like to be dumped (calling a spade, a spade) so publicly.
June 21st, 2008 at 11:56 am
wang: fuck you. and nobody got dumped.
June 21st, 2008 at 1:27 pm
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June 21st, 2008 at 1:46 pm
hey … I thought everything was lovey dovey and all’s well especially while Nat was away in US.
sad lor for both of you … it’s no easy task to make relationships work especially with Nat being a PKR guy and you being a Malaysiakini journalist.
Hopefully, time heals and both of you will find new loves who will fill up the void in your hearts.
June 21st, 2008 at 2:33 pm
hey, if it really makes you two feel better, by all means, ‘fuck’ me!
No hard feelings on my part, I’m very glad to be of ’service’.
June 21st, 2008 at 2:43 pm
‘life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you gonna get’..Forest Gump
Be strong, be yourselves, the future is but a step away. An item in the future could be a yes could be a no, nonetheless, knowing that each still cares is good to know!
All d best in ur future undertaking polytikus & Jelas..
June 21st, 2008 at 3:58 pm
wang, why don’t you just keep yr comments to yourself no matter how much you think so highly of them esp when ppl tell you so??
June 21st, 2008 at 4:02 pm
I empatise & wish you all the best. Respect… for the courage, the independence & the self-forgiveness.
Take it easy & all the best.
June 23rd, 2008 at 3:22 pm
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