Rainbows.
First I would like to thank everyone for their kind words. It showed me yet again that love and warmth can come from the most unlikely of places. The CT scan reports are not out yet but my dad has consulted a neurologist friend. It appears the condition was most probably caused by the fall my dad had last week and not the whiskey. Phew.
He has also started his medication so hopefully, the condition where the blood supply was cut off from his brain will heal in due time. It appears that there may be some permanent memory loss but nothing too serious. My dad has started recollecting things from his fall last Wednesday to events from last night. It is very encouraging and I’m very glad he is better. We expect more consultations to come after the reports are out.
Anyway, I’m still feeling my way through things. I’m beginning to think I should feel less and think more. Darwin knows my heart needs healing but the head needs to be occupied! So tell me, what do YOU do fun? I might just pick up some ideas :)
Just two pertinent words of wisdom that dear friends have shared in lifting my spirits:
- Sometimes one doesn’t need to find love, it finds you (thanks Dev!)
- We spend so much time worrying about other people’s effect on us, we forget we also have an effect on others. There might well be someone wondering when the hell Li Tsin is ever going to notice him… (thanks Marina!)
I think I am finding the rainbows after the storm. And not just the rainbows but the melody of the birds and rustling of trees in the wind. The air is cool and fresh - I’m going to take advantage of it :)
I owe it to my dad, I owe it to myself and I owe it to all of you, for the kindness and support you’ve shown me in the past few days. I really, really appreciate it.
June 24th, 2008 at 8:59 pm
i’m really, really glad your dad is feeling a bit better….
June 24th, 2008 at 9:02 pm
I have found blogging a fantastic outlet which helped tremendously in my grieving process — of course, unlike polytikus, only a couple of people ever read my blogs.
on your breakup, I’m sorry for the circumstances surrounding the whole episode, as one who was once married (she passed away two years ago) I can only say all relationships are complicated and somewhat difficult, even before the involvement of other parties, but that does not mean you will not be blessed with love again or that you should NOT be open to relationships…
on your Dad, it is important to be vigilant in the coming days, to ensure that he’s really “out of the woods” with regards to clotting, etc, etc. It is a must to be “kiasu” as hell in situations like this…
take care and I will keep a good thought for your family…
June 24th, 2008 at 9:53 pm
Good to know your dad is doing well. And you too. :)
June 24th, 2008 at 10:04 pm
Time will heal your borken heart.
Focus your energy in caring for your dad and mum, and, anything else will pale in comparison.
Take care of your mum, dad and yourself …
June 24th, 2008 at 10:28 pm
i totally agree… whatever happened to dad was a real eye opener
it clearly shows there are much more important things in life involving ppl u really love… urself, family and greatest of friends…
So stop thinking of jerks who only choses to hurt others in doing things to fulfill their silly desires…
been there…. and i know how it feels… remember… u still have us :*
June 24th, 2008 at 11:05 pm
Really wish you well in everything. Take care.
June 25th, 2008 at 2:06 am
li tsin, i’m happy for you and am encouraged by your positive outlook and strength.. praying that your dad will recuperate well. cheers and keep blogging! :)
June 25th, 2008 at 11:14 am
Go Rock climbing. Go outing with friends and have movie marathon. Go Dancing. Go Whack some friends. Get a dog, Dog some how understand how a human feel. God bless!
June 25th, 2008 at 12:21 pm
Hey..
Glad your dad is doing ok. Hope he gets well soon…
as for you…Do take care.. Be strong…
June 25th, 2008 at 8:08 pm
A perfect title for what you wrote! Keep your chin up! I see you get your spunk from your dad! Good on ya.
June 25th, 2008 at 11:00 pm
Take care kakak mouse.
Glad that he’s fine
June 26th, 2008 at 4:31 am
Just wanna inform you this blog has been officially nominated as a candidate for …
The Greatest Malaysian Blog – BLOGGER (English) C
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June 26th, 2008 at 6:03 pm
Li Tsin, I am happy for you….that attitude you are in…..life goes on….roses have thorns…remember that.. Hey we are in category C and I voted for you. How’s that?
June 26th, 2008 at 6:37 pm
keep well, courageous one. may ur dad heal in time.
June 27th, 2008 at 1:02 am
Hey Li Tsin,
So sorry to hear about your Dad. Hope everything works out alright.
June 27th, 2008 at 10:23 am
Hi Li Tsin,
Just read your blog after a while and I’m really sorry about what you’ve been through. At least things are looking up =) I don’t know if it would work for you but a set of poster colours and art block might be useful to release the stress within. Cheap therapy =P
Chin up and I do believe that you’re strong enough to withstand the blows. Wish you happiness and your dad, health.
June 27th, 2008 at 12:39 pm
When the world seems to be too overwhelming, the hardest thing is to give your mind a break… do nothing.. go to somewhere quiet, bring your awareness to your breathing, random and anxious thoughts will calm down in your mind, try to be aware of the silence between thoughts… and slowly be aware of the peace within yourself which is always there… the stillness and peace within yourself is the only absolute in life that you can tap into no matter how crazy the external conditions are.
June 27th, 2008 at 7:44 pm
Ooh, i know what’d be fun!
Go to oblique.mp3s / muruku and listen to the stuff you uploaded 1093 days (3 years less 2 days) ago.
Or you can screw the specific dates and just dig around for all the stuff that you found good enough to upload.
I did that, and I’m falling in love with the Soviet Red Choir all over again.
:D
June 29th, 2008 at 1:27 am
Sorry to hear about the news. Wishing your father a speedy recovery.
Just to share with you my personal experience.
My elderly father suffered a concussion 2 years ago when he fell and knocked his head on a tiled floor. An MRI scan showed there had been a slight bleeding in a spot in his brain, fortunately cleared up quickly. He suffered some amnesia and slight loss of vision.
It took almost a year but he’s completely recovered.
Your family may have to take extra care of his activities during the recovery period - there can be some slowing down brain functions such as muscle coordination, reflexes. That means no driving for some time, exercise is very beneficial but not the strenous type.
Again, best wishes.
July 4th, 2008 at 1:58 pm
hey there, only caught up with ur blog now. i’m really sorry that u have to go thru all these now. but hey, u know the theory, whatever goes down will definitely come up. so hang in there yes? i’m glad ur anticipating rainbows now, in fact, expect more and better things! it’ll surely come ur way.
life’s just like that. shit happens. but to hell with them, moving on u will! :) take care girl! *BIG FAR HUGGIES*