squeak. speak. roar!

I’m finding it very stressful to load my Gmail since last night. Does anybody else have this problem?

:(

I don’t buy or read that many magazines. The only ones I recall buying religiously were Smash Hits and Time (what a transition!) I confess, I have never bought a fashion magazine before. I just flick them off my sister. lol.

But I bought my first ever fashion magazine - Style: (yes, it’s called ‘Style’ followed by a colon) today!! Why? Because ….

August issue. RM8. Buy buy!

Upon closer inspection.

And erm, there I am! Inside!!

The picture of me featured inside is very flattering. So much so, you will not be able to recognise me. Even I didn’t recognise myself, which means the make up guy did a fantastically good job! I mean I’d put it all here but I have a policy of not putting pictures of myself over this blog. I’m in the company of very esteemed individuals (and friends) in this article about youths and politics so I am rather pleased. It was really fun doing the photoshoot.

lol.

Erm. So go check it out lah!! Abuthen? :P

p/s: Thanks to Siew Ching for the awesome piece :)

…. time to whip our MPs into shape (as if we haven’t already)!!

Come to the BLOG HOUSE at 66, LORONG SETIABISTARI 2, DAMANSARA HEIGHTS for LUCKY DRAWS, AUCTIONS, FUN and GAMES on THIS SATURDAY (JULY 5)!

Starts at 8.00PM, ends when the beer runs out :P

Come and meet your friendly elected representatives and tell them that honeymoon is over, time to get their hands dirty (in a good way).

It was RM30 per pax but that has been awesomely waived thanks to the cables that were pulled. lol.

I wanted to Wikimapia it but the map was so freaking cloudy so here’s the hybrid map instead! But directions roughly:

From Bangsar or Sprint, turn into Damansara Heights. Go down the road until you pass Esso on your left. Keep left. Turn left at the traffic lights into Jalan Beringin. Take the second left into Jalan Setiabistari and you will see Blog House on your left round the corner. You’ll most probably see loads of cars so that will be your indicator :)

Anwar Anwar Anwar.

Does anybody realise that today is the start of the electricity tariff hike?

Change your lifestyles again. For the worse. Good luck, my friends.

The heart often heals much quicker with Nizlopi. Bless them and their lyrics about love, life and hope. lol. I’m rediscovering the music I adore (noisy, indie stuff) and the people I’ve missed speaking to. Not to mention the strange pleasure in being asked out already.

dot dot dot.

Moving along ….

:)

Guess I’ll pen a short note to Luke and John for helping me get through this all over again. I do love the Niz.

And sorry for not putting this quick enough as someone preempted me from making this announcement myself. My dad suffered a ‘post concussion amnesia’ that often occurs immediately after a concussion. We’re not sure why my dad had it 5 days after his fall. But the entire family is relieved to hear that it’s not serious and we’re all immensely thankful for all your kind words and support :) Very very thankful :)

*bows*

This blog might undergo a revamp sometime soon or it might not. Fact of the matter is, I’m getting extremely tired of blogging. There are already too many people doing a wonderful job and I’m getting too old for this. I’ve been at this for 6 years already! lol.

But this decision is not mine alone and I seek wisdom from my dearest readers. Shall I take a break or shall I blog on?

Happy weekend everybody! :)

p/s: I’m going to Urbanscapes on Saturday evening after work. Say hello if you see me!! :)

First I would like to thank everyone for their kind words. It showed me yet again that love and warmth can come from the most unlikely of places. The CT scan reports are not out yet but my dad has consulted a neurologist friend. It appears the condition was most probably caused by the fall my dad had last week and not the whiskey. Phew.

He has also started his medication so hopefully, the condition where the blood supply was cut off from his brain will heal in due time. It appears that there may be some permanent memory loss but nothing too serious. My dad has started recollecting things from his fall last Wednesday to events from last night. It is very encouraging and I’m very glad he is better. We expect more consultations to come after the reports are out.

Anyway, I’m still feeling my way through things. I’m beginning to think I should feel less and think more. Darwin knows my heart needs healing but the head needs to be occupied! So tell me, what do YOU do fun? I might just pick up some ideas :)

Just two pertinent words of wisdom that dear friends have shared in lifting my spirits:

• Sometimes one doesn’t need to find love, it finds you (thanks Dev!)

• We spend so much time worrying about other people’s effect on us, we forget we also have an effect on others. There might well be someone wondering when the hell Li Tsin is ever going to notice him… (thanks Marina!)

I think I am finding the rainbows after the storm. And not just the rainbows but the melody of the birds and rustling of trees in the wind. The air is cool and fresh - I’m going to take advantage of it :)

I owe it to my dad, I owe it to myself and I owe it to all of you, for the kindness and support you’ve shown me in the past few days. I really, really appreciate it.

Happy birthday to us! :)

Click!

Conversations between me and Monkey …

Monkey: Mummy, mummy, please don’t cry.
Me: *choke choke sob sob* Looks like its just us from now on :(
Monkey: It’s okay, mummy. I still love you *hugs*
Me: Happy birthday sweetie *hugs*
Monkey: Happy birthday mummy.

*cuddles*

p/s: Sorry, comments closed for previous post. It was getting abused with free speech being hurled irresponsibly.

… the break up.

Happier times!

Dear friends,

It has been two years and 16 days that I have shared my wonderful life with Nat. Throughout the two years, there were bumps and hiccups that were normally fixed by promises of change and working hard in making things work. However, we hit a bump recently and there was no solution to that bump. Painful as it is, we have decided to end this relationship. Reasons that will remain private to us, all I can say is that it all ended amicably. Nat can have his cake and eat it :)

Besides the highlight of being together everyday, there were moments that stood out that deserves mention - Monkey, Nat’s arrest where I think I promised never to let Nat go, forums, movies, snuggle muggles, childwen galore lol. Emo as I am, I am crying as I type. It breaks my heart that this had to happen and I would really hope that everyone would respect our decision. It’s funny how I felt that this warranted a public announcement because we are oddly and somewhat a public couple. lol. I guess I’m being too self-absorbed but I felt it was necessary to clear the air that we are now two separate entities.

I’m a mess right now. 2008 has been personally one of the worst year I’ve had. I can safely say I’ve hit an all-new low that I am not accustomed to. The feeling of having my heart ripped out is not easy and I can only find strength from …. well, I don’t know. I’m seeking it from within I guess and I’m trying my darnedest best to speed the healing process.

I’m also writing this because I needed closure. And a reminder that I need to be strong. I hope this would discourage Nat from making any attempts to fix this but I think that’s highly unlikely and that is okay. I’ve done my best and given my all. I have nothing left.

The beating of a hollow heart is deafening. And I’m the only one that can hear it.

I love you, Nat. I will love you always. Thank you and your wonderful family for everything. May you find the joy that you seek.

<3

9pm, June 4, 2006 - 3am, June 21, 2008

Oh by the way, it’s my birthday tomorrow on Sunday! The irony of everything really. I’m trying so hard to laugh about it :) :(

I’m eliminating all the factors in my life that is making me unhappy.

Since I am making myself unhappy, that means ….

nvm. Nobody gives a fuck anyway.